!CRAPPY TIME!

So...I'm having a pretty crappy time in my life right now. I'm at this point in my life where I just don't know what to do anymore. Nothing I do is ever right and it doesn't bring me true happiness. I feel like crap about myself ALL the time & no one really makes me feel better about myself.

The one thing I want out of life is a husband! I feel like if I have someone who is with me all the time & someone who loves me for me will make me feel complete. I keep searching & searching for things that will make me happy, but honestly nothing is making me feel fulfilled. I just want to feel like my life is full & happy, but it just isn't. I want a man to come home to & for him to hold me & tell me it's going to be alright during the tough times. I need someone to love me & help me with my personal struggles. I know it would take a really special man to help me with my issues, but I know those kind of men are out there...I've seen it. I also want a man that will let me spoil him & love on him. I crave the affection! It's just about going to kill me. It seems like I am the only one who doesn't have "the one!" ALL of my friends are married or have a boyfriend...not me. I feel so alone all the time & no one really understands what I go through.

I feel like my friends are avoiding me & ignoring me...life pretty much sucks right now. I just want to feel needed & no one seems to need me...